EGOkah aku?

Susahnya bila tersepit ditengah2 kemelut..
Like seriously I do not know how to decide..
They did not really satisfied me with their performance and act.
I did decided to resign..
But they persuaded me to stay..
I stuck between this two things, feeling and surrounding.
Feeling yang buat aku rase tak tahan dengan kerenah manusia-manusia egois yang tak membantu menyelesaikan masalah bahkan merekalah pemyumbang kepada hampir setiap masalah yang timbul...
Aku juga bingung... kerana keluarga disini, segalanya sudah hampir menyenangkan aku except that one thing. this "people".. I do not care if they keep dwell in their ego and stupidity... Just don't care and that's the reason I resigned anyway.
Anyhow, I started to feel comfortable  with the working tasks, friend, colleagues, but not the boss and management and environment,
When I asked for a partner at the first place, they gave me a boss, a new boss.. literally I has three boss that obviously I need to listen to.. Can you see the complicates of this management?. Three versus one, three orders, one executor... how?
Then I felt extremely tired, no time at all to rest except sleep, no time to socialize, no time to go back hometown, no time for brothers and sisters, no time to meet friends, no time to date?,, pfffttt..
But now, when I really think I has made my decision, my heart is not at ease. Its like want to stay here longer, because I been granted a new partner that took half of my task, which is good.. because I has time to socialize, go back hometown, make a friend at least... and  go to find a date... kuang3,..
I want to stay here, i love my jobs, but the management is totally suck for me.
When  I heard that there will be 4 candidates for my replacement, I not happy at all... I just like want to say to HR manager that I want to stay.. but what he only asked me, was what are the criteria should the candidates have? Huhu...
I know that I want to stay here but because of I not happy with the management system, I keep saying that I want to resign.. When people asked, when is your last date?,  are you really resigning this time?...
I stressed!.. I want to say that I want to stay, but the management system keeps bothering me and make me to say that I confirmed I resigned. Damn!
I haven't have the gut to make confirmation with my previous company since that I feel I will stay here. I do not want them to wait for me and end up with disappointment.
I do not know, let Allah helps me...  Please guide me..
Should I go and meet HR, say that I want to cancel my resignation. Is not too late already?..
or should I just go with flow, let the time decide...

Nearby but no that happy, distance but at ease... seriously I do not know.... :(


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BAD SIGN

Today, with not that busy work lifestyle..
I was been prompted which a shocked news...
Guess what??

There was an accident to one of the operator of process plant.
It was a big thing, because that man , i might say has a quite serious injury, a part of his head was injured, with all bleeding non stop, that serious, really-really serious.. at least for me.

But, what I cannot accept with the management was that, a sense of human was not there anymore.
How could this thing happens in this lovely world?
What make me really upset was,:-
Mr M: Should the plant stop? Should the plant stop just because of this one guy?.. We can't stop, please

Mr S: I don't know.. I will check with the authority..

while, me indirectly was there to hear everything, came to think that..
 Hei, Mr S, is that all you can do?.. The man might be fighting to live, while you say nothing except checking with authority... is that you call humanity?

Here there, the man would not be injured if there is nothing wrong with the workplace or the procedure or something... investigate first before second victim or more appeared. Oh please, do advise something to ensure the our people, our worker are safe to work at our company. Not blindly work without taking into consideration regarding safety, oh please once again, you are mr safety, you are hired to ensure zero accident, but what did you do?

Production need to be ran without stop, let the people die not the product, the product need to be produced as much as possible. People are not important, profit are more valuable.. People, one go ten come, but if production stop, no profit will be obtained.

Is that what you believe mr M?, is it money is all you care.. One thing to remember, without people, you would not gain money.. okay uncle?.. you are too old to be a bad guy.. Where is you humanity? Where is it disappeared?..

Oh man... human are really sucks this day... i'm afraid for the next generation..
Hope for the best for the man, Insyaallah you will be fine..


Maybe, i should make my move...

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