Susahnya bila tersepit ditengah2 kemelut..
Like seriously I do not know how to decide..
They did not really satisfied me with their performance and act.
I did decided to resign..
But they persuaded me to stay..
I stuck between this two things, feeling and surrounding.
Feeling yang buat aku rase tak tahan dengan kerenah manusia-manusia egois yang tak membantu menyelesaikan masalah bahkan merekalah pemyumbang kepada hampir setiap masalah yang timbul...
Aku juga bingung... kerana keluarga disini, segalanya sudah hampir menyenangkan aku except that one thing. this "people".. I do not care if they keep dwell in their ego and stupidity... Just don't care and that's the reason I resigned anyway.
Anyhow, I started to feel comfortable with the working tasks, friend, colleagues, but not the boss and management and environment,
When I asked for a partner at the first place, they gave me a boss, a new boss.. literally I has three boss that obviously I need to listen to.. Can you see the complicates of this management?. Three versus one, three orders, one executor... how?
Then I felt extremely tired, no time at all to rest except sleep, no time to socialize, no time to go back hometown, no time for brothers and sisters, no time to meet friends, no time to date?,, pfffttt..
But now, when I really think I has made my decision, my heart is not at ease. Its like want to stay here longer, because I been granted a new partner that took half of my task, which is good.. because I has time to socialize, go back hometown, make a friend at least... and go to find a date... kuang3,..
I want to stay here, i love my jobs, but the management is totally suck for me.
When I heard that there will be 4 candidates for my replacement, I not happy at all... I just like want to say to HR manager that I want to stay.. but what he only asked me, was what are the criteria should the candidates have? Huhu...
I know that I want to stay here but because of I not happy with the management system, I keep saying that I want to resign.. When people asked, when is your last date?, are you really resigning this time?...
I stressed!.. I want to say that I want to stay, but the management system keeps bothering me and make me to say that I confirmed I resigned. Damn!
I haven't have the gut to make confirmation with my previous company since that I feel I will stay here. I do not want them to wait for me and end up with disappointment.
I do not know, let Allah helps me... Please guide me..
Should I go and meet HR, say that I want to cancel my resignation. Is not too late already?..
or should I just go with flow, let the time decide...
Nearby but no that happy, distance but at ease... seriously I do not know.... :(
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