DIZZY N NAUSEOUS

Hi there!...
Today i felt very tired, sleepy, dizzy also nauseous...
 I know why... its not that im pregnant!... ohoo... of course not!.. bffft...
It just that i do not know how to decide.. damn its so hard when you need to choose for your future n family.. when there are many circumstances...
i cannot sleep, less focus on work, not happy fortunately i can eat... if not im dying man!
Up until now, i still worrying, keep thinking which one is the best for me...
Msg here n there, surf here n there, ask here n there, whassap here n there, but no positive feedback... why its so hard... i just need at least a room to rent, that is it.. is that hard?...
when i asked for opinion...
some said its up to you, you going make a big decision for your life
some said make a consideration first, think on the both sides when you have no shelf to stay n no transport to move... offer not that great but better than current.. big responsibilities compared to current...
while others said, just go... everything will be settled by the time...
me, my self, half said why you need to go when you are happy here, you got stable life what?
your friend are here.. you are familiar with the system n work, felt satisfied with tthe salary not that much but okay... while new job need your responsibilities, its big man! its big!
my other half, go.. its chance for you to go back to hometown, payback time for the family, helping brother get that kasih sayang of a sister when mother not more around...expanding your career,you should practice what your degree taught you, chance might not come twice man... only if i got the license, things wouldnt be this hard, i can go back home n drive to search for rental house ... nih x nk harapkn org jek, org pn ade keje jgk nk buat... hal rumah satu hal, transport lak ape citer?... adoyaii...
oh man..
istikharah pn dh buat, but i do not what to say...
 Klu stay karang, time bos mengamuk, aku plak meroyan nk cari keje lain, yg tempat bru nih plak xthu lg culture die mcm mne... sak  kkiiiit btul....
Really feel like to throw out... i feel like need someone to decide for me... i need to speak to someone but... i know im disturbing them with my worries nothing beneficial for them... they got their own problem...  its my life, its for me to decide...
i just want to say NO, but family came to my mind... for their sake n for my own sake, when you close to family, life would be different..

Adakah ini sebenarnya ujian untuk ku?... untuk melihat kebergantungan ku kepada mu ya Allah.. sesungguh nya aku amat memerlukan petunjuk dan pertolongan Mu....

Aku harap aku buat keputusan yg terbaik..., sesiapa yg terbce post nih... doakn aku buat keputusan yg tepat... aminn...

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